Warning: this post discusses mental health problems and symptoms, specifically those related to Depression
'Trouble starts before they even get out of the city. Bucky’s car is a disaster. It’s not as bad as his apartment, but still messy enough to be very embarrassing and not helping in convincing Sam his assumptions about him are wrong.'
Yes, it's Bucky-Barnes-based. Yes, it's a weird one.
I was honestly looking for something different this week, but sometimes, amongst all the fanfiction I consume on a weekly basis, it just ends up coming back - again - to Bucky Barnes.
...and I'm OK with that.
I am trash. And you know this. 😅
So, this is entirely AU. No canon here to speak of.
Forget the canon, we don't know her.
We have Sam and Bucky. And that's where all relation to the MCU begins and ends.
(Fandom notes:
AU = Alternate Universe. Which is pretty much what it sounds like.
Canon = the 'official' stuff in a book/film/TV series/whatever.
MCU = the Marvel movies and Disney+ Marvel series)
The premise of this fic is that Bucky is (probably...) some sort of immortal being, who is f**king tired.
Which... is probably more relatable than it should be, but we're gonna gloss over that.
So tired is our fair Bucky, of his endless existence, that he's moved beyond tired, and into full-blown Depression.
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The only major disruption to the cr**py little niche he's carved out for himself to wallow away in is one Sam Wilson - his impossibly perky colleague from the music store where he works.
No matter how much Bucky tries to push him away, Sam keeps coming back - and not just in the 'I work here' sense, in the 'I am a happy dog - let me be your friend, grumpy cat,' kind of sense.
And... Sam might actually care. About Bucky's general wellbeing.
Which is weird... right?
*jazz hands* Cue fic!
It's a surprisingly sweet, surprisingly clever, little fic, with good representation of what Depression can look like.
I say 'can' because Depression is so unique to the individual; while there were definitely things here that I could relate to hard -
like the eating problems and general tiredness
- there were also things that I don't have experience of, but know that other people do -
like the staying in bed all day (my Depression likes to scream at me to get up and get sh** done. It's much less productive than you'd think.)
A few Content Warnings for this one, then:
- Depression and related symptoms
- Anxiety-like symptoms
- eating problems/disordered eating
- mild Ableism (doesn't want to be seen as 'crazy' etc.)
This week's fic, then, is:
Fast Cars, They Run Me Down
by Lillian_theRENThead
Does anyone have any fic recs for fandoms outside the MCU? Or just outside of Bucky Barnes? 😅
How tired would any immortal being be of the world's b*llsh** by now, do you think?
Talk to me! 😘💬
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Keep the Bucky fics coming! There's no shame in being Bucky trash, he's awesome for a reason :D
ReplyDeleteHey, I thought *I* was supposed to be the bad influence! ;)
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